Sometimes maturing isn’t gradual, but an episode. You’re going along in life, comfortably set in your ways for some time, when something shifts your perspective. And quickly (over days, weeks, or months — but relatively quickly) a lot of thoughts are set in unstoppable motion and you may be unsettled for a while, until decisions and new habits condense and you arrive at a new static equilibrium and realize that You Are Different and you can point back to it and say “That happened.”
Mostly, smooth flow happens in retrospect, progress by fits and starts, change, instantly.
Love this! Well done!